Bang

I thought it would be hard. Perhaps it was, perhaps it was the hardest decision of my life, but in that moment it was easy. I wasn’t nervous, wasn’t scared, wasn’t upset. For what felt like the first time I was happy: at peace.    It was probably painful. I think it was why everything… Continue reading Bang

Too Young to Realize

I was young. Too young to realize what was really happening. Too young to realize this was love. Too young to realize it was one sided. Too young to realize I was being used.    I remember the way my heart started to pound, a wide smile filled with teeth gracing my face when she… Continue reading Too Young to Realize

Things People Need to Realize about Mental Illness

It isn’t just us being lazy. It isn’t being tired or weak willed or grumpy. It isn’t us just not wanting to try or change. They are called mental illnesses for a reason.    It is being so weak and tired and powerless that simply breathing takes all of your energy. It is never being… Continue reading Things People Need to Realize about Mental Illness

Weird Ways to deal with a Loved One in the Hospital

The first thing you should know it that I am incredibly close with my grandfather. We go out to eat together, have shows we watch together, sit in companionable silence, and he edits anything I write that he sees, including these blog posts. I am always happy with it though because there are only ever… Continue reading Weird Ways to deal with a Loved One in the Hospital

Top Three Tips for Opening Up about Your Problems

I have a hard time opening up to people. I have a hard time being honest about my deeper feelings, even in regards to myself. I am only just starting to really admit certain things to myself and the people who need to know so I can start figuring it all out. Everyone has things… Continue reading Top Three Tips for Opening Up about Your Problems